rechallenged the addiction

Coming out may be quite a road trip. It is tough to predict what the journey will be like. What to do when you have a puncture? Or stuck on the highway. Importantly do you have enough fuel to go all the way?

The cliche “out but not out” refers to exposing one’s sexual identity to a bigger picture. We are not talking about telling your pet dog that you like it from the back too. But it is about like what CW said, “macro-coming-out”, that you fucking business is now everyone’s tea gossip. Making yourself known in the public eye and allowing them to digest the fact that gay is not necessary always in pink. Not many gay Malaysians came out in a macro level; some did it through the media, some wrote best-selling books, etc. Is this done in the interest of an individual or a community?

If you are keen, head over to GenderGenres. Like the moderator Pang sloged, “Stop overpopulation! Fuck the same sex”.

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When you are in your 50’s, you shag a 20’s something.

When you are in your 40’s, you shag a 20’s something.

When you are in your 30’s, you shag a 20’s something.

When I am in my 20’s, I don’t get to shag any 20’s something.

It is as if the only attraction that ever happens is between generation. Whoever said there’s generation gap. I clearly don’t see that within my friends and myself.

Finding someone older (or supposedly more matured) can be of an achievement for the young soul. Not only he is more experienced in most aspect, but he is stable and dependable. Of cos it may not always be the case.

What is it that a younger man sees in an older man?

What is it that an older man sees in a younger man?

LT has refused the challenge of my 2007 resolution to find a partner. She said she rather put her effort in making more money in the year to come.

Nick has also did the same. He rather sleeps around with as many boys as he wishes, and not to worry about commitment.

SK has decided to take a break from love and affair, and went on a long week away to Sydney.

Should I attempt?

Next year will be my year, perhap I’d get lucky.

Or like what Nick said, “If you’ve wasted a whole year on a wish-list of finding a perfect someone, you know Santa address has changed”.

Perhaps he’s right.

But how can he be right if he never sleeps with anyone more than twice, with exception if you are hot and young.

Maybe the lifestyle he chosen is not as bad as it looks. Another friend PT contradicts himself by saying he wishes he has someone to settle down with, but he can’t stand the commitment talk. And nothing lasts more than a few months.

I am in my 20’s. I shall shag that 20’s something too.

————————- KLANG ————————-

Who says you need to wait til Valentine’s to get chocolate. Not me. I got mine last weekend. I had a big smile on my face when I saw the huge box of Ferrero Rocher.

And I got a kiss from my nephew who came visiting.

Who needs a boyfriend when you have chocolate and little kisses!

p.s. As long you don’t do it in the train.

A broken nose

A sickenin’ feeling

The game got out of hand

I lean my head on the countertop

Wonderin’ why me

Did I deserve this

He left the house

Not after pushing me around

He no longer looks a lover

The rope is so tight it stings my wrists and ankles

Shoulder pressed back on the chair

I felt like a prisoner in my own house

The brutality

The angst

The jealousy

Am I to be blamed

He said he’d teach me a lesson

Chapter one: never walk away when he’s talking

The blue and the black is the conclusion

Chapter two: never deny his accusation

He’d sum it up with a bloody punch

Chapter three: never say it’s over until he says so

The stationary chair is the ultimate treatment

Chapter four:…

Lesson is pending

He said he will be back soon

But I secretly wish he never return

I never sign up to this course

If I did, I want a refund with a new nose

I’m sufferin’

I’m hurtin’

I’m drippin’

I’m not a good learner

So go find another

Ok. I admit. I lied.

I fabricated the incident in sex on wheel. I didn’t know my fucking action is suddenly everyone’s fucking business.

Nick sms-ed “I wan’t to hear the sex on wheel in detail when we meet”.

MK emailed “How could you do a married man. I’ll have to be careful next time when I bring my hubby out to meet you”.

JJ called “Sex with stranger is fine. But knowing that he is attached and you still go ahead is so wrong”.

So… I never said I am a saint, nor did I really have sex with a married man. I guess there is really a borderline to creative writing. Or so it seems to bent reading.

I don’t have to explain myself. I won’t remove that post.

And MK, you can keep your husband. He snores!

*no friendship was threatened in writing these two posts. MK and I had a good laugh over the phone yesterday, but she still wouldn’t allow her hubby to hang out with me without her around. And Nick, you might be disappointed if you want it on the table.

I got my hot chocolate. I am good.

Then a message pop-up: “2000 horny Malaysians PLUs“

I’m impressed with the site. Another venue for picking up guys.

As I scrolled down (you supposed to do the same) and discovered the shallowness of the site.

In “random polls” section, surfer is to decide whether the guy is ugly or not. Is this how gay community functions? By the dimple you have on your face! Although only 25% voted “yes” and 75% voted “normal”, no one protest the unfairness of labelling a person with “ugly”.

Great! I shall just return to my hot chocolate and be glad that I am not the poor fellow being voted. I can remain beautiful.

My unit is hiring staff for our upcoming project. I caught a glimpse of the guy who came for interview today. Didn’t see his face, but from the back, obviously he is a metro (or gay), tall and nicely built, and chinese. I think I shall bring my colleague who interviewed him out so dig further. It is exciting to have a target at work. From what I know, there’s definately no policy on “office dating”.